Penis Fish

why is life so hard? why cant it be easier? sometimes i wish i knew what people thought about me. I wish i knew what I wanted. I should know what i want, but i just don’t. You can ask me a million times but i still won’t know. I probably never will, maybe someday. Parents understand only sometimes. There probably isnt anyone reading this but i just need to vent. I wish I hadnt have done what i did , but maybe it was for the best. I hope i didnt hurt him too bad. Does he really want to be my friend? I want someone else. i want something else, i just dont know what i want. He is so smart and he is so cute and almost perfect. I say almost because no one is perfect. I feel like im trying to catch something but my hands are chained together … im restrained. They all think so highly of me and they have such high expectations that i feel like im drowning. I dont think im better than anyone and i never have i just hope that no one thinks that they are better than anyone. why cant life be the way we want it to be…. i guess because that would be too easy. Im happy that there is music that makes me feel better sometimes. I probably sound like im whining but im just trying to express…. i need someone or something to tell… and my stuffed animals dont listen very well… jk… i dont talk to inanimate objects. Sometimes i hate being a teenager there is too much drama and too many hormones … i just learn to laugh at it in the end but its not as easy as it may seem .